No-one will ever understand why I don’t like public speaking. But, I really don’t. Yet, I am told that I am pretty good at it. I hate the anxiety and angst that I feel before having to make a public presentation. I am told that many people experience the same symptoms before speaking engagements, and not to worry since this is the key to an authentic presentation. Go figure.
I speak publicly all of the time, not because I want to, but because I have to, since it is how how I make my bread and butter. I am paid to speak. lol.
I can understand speaking on a professional level since it is how I make my living, but when I am on my own time and I am called for a speaking engagement, to me, it is unnecessary stress that I don’t need in my life. Yet, how can I say no? Especially when they want me to talk about Jesus.
If you don’t know it by now, let me enlighten you, God has an excellent sense of humor. He always makes sure that I am pulled front and center to talk about His goodness. But when it comes to Father God, I just can’t refuse. I forge ahead and give it my all since He deserves nothing less. Interestingly enough, when I take the microphone, God takes over and all of my anxiety disappears. At that point, it is no longer about me, but all about Jesus and it is so easy to talk about Him. Glory!
Check out my poem entitled “Talk.”
Talk I hate to talk To share my innermost thoughts and feelings I hate to let you know my true hidden meanings My mind and my heart It’s personal and dark I don’t want to share I know you care But I want to stay hidden I’m not into revealing What I know, what I think and how I am dealing It belongs to me And me alone Why do you insist on trying to take it, I say Leave me alone so that I can walk along and pray Go away I am not into talking today By: Jacqueline Greene, copyright 2020. If only I could remain quiet, but to whom much is given, much is required.
Ok God, I am ready, when is our next speaking engagement?